In mid-June I achieved more days being on this earth than my husband. Rick had reached just 64 years and 73 days when he ‘moved to paradise’ following a 4-month battle with pancreatic cancer. As sad as that seems from solely a numbers perspective, the fact that Rick had such a zest for life &Continue reading “2023-06-21 And Now I’m the Older One”
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2023-10-11 A Cool Autumn Breeze
A cool autumn breeze coming through the open bedroom window gently roused me at 3am. There seemed to be a sweet quality to the air. I grabbed the butter fleece blanket at the end of the bed and pulled it over me. The comforting extra bulk enticed me to burrow down, and the sheets alreadyContinue reading “2023-10-11 A Cool Autumn Breeze”
2023-09-29 The Tilt of the Sun
I am usually at our community pool around 7am as I prefer to swim & tread in my own little wet world. I have great water-resistant Bluetooth earbuds and I enjoy ‘flipping my fins’ to a variety of playlists. A few weeks back an early work meeting caused me to take a 9:30 am breakContinue reading “2023-09-29 The Tilt of the Sun”
2023-05-08 A Phone Call & More Messages
The home ‘landline’ phone rang and I glanced at the Caller ID thinking it was another scam call. It was a South Bay hospital, one that Rick had been to twice for surgical procedures during his battle with cancer. They asked for Rick as they had billing questions regarding Medicare enrollment. I told them thatContinue reading “2023-05-08 A Phone Call & More Messages”
2022-12-30 A Birthday Tribute
Sharing a story of when I went to a beach Rick & I had meant to explore, but we never got the chance to go back after his cancer diagnosis. Since Rick ‘moved to paradise’ I am very aware of heart shapes: in clouds, leaves, rocks, etc. But there are some family and friends onContinue reading “2022-12-30 A Birthday Tribute”
2023-05-03 A Note to Sister & Brother Widows
I learned something on last week’s solo getaway. I roamed down a semi-private road of another Inn looking for somewhere to view the sun setting over the mighty Pacific. I was rewarded with a truly awesome sunset view! Rick & I loved exploring beaches/forests together, we both took photos & posed together. When I startedContinue reading “2023-05-03 A Note to Sister & Brother Widows”
2022-03-20 Seeing Blooms & Blessings
As I walk into my third year with Rick not on this earthy plain I am getting better at being more deliberate in practicing mindfulness. I take time to notice not just flowers but their hues and details. I notice not just the change of temperature walking out my front door, but the scent inContinue reading “2022-03-20 Seeing Blooms & Blessings”
2022-01-01 Going Back Two Years
Today dawned clear & cold (32 f) and I recalled Jan 1, 2020, which now it is such a wonderful memory. In 2020 Rick had just completed his first round of chemo and his ‘markers were down’ (indicating his tumor was possibly shrinking). He could now digest food and the pain meds were helping –Continue reading “2022-01-01 Going Back Two Years”
2021-07-09 Birdsongs, Feathers & A Memory
Sudden recall of romantic early memories has been such a gift for me almost 16 months after Rick moved to paradise. Perhaps the density of widow fog is lessening because the past few days I have been more aware of birdsongs around my home. And today a memory came flooding back. When Rick first movedContinue reading “2021-07-09 Birdsongs, Feathers & A Memory”
2021-06-01 Light Shines Brightest in the Dark
Lately it is hard for me to keep it together. It has been 1 year, 2 months and 20 days since Rick ‘moved to paradise’ and in the past 5 days I have been in tears twice at our Department of Motor Vehicles while trying to change the title on Rick’s car. And mind you,Continue reading “2021-06-01 Light Shines Brightest in the Dark”
Treasure Every Day 