In mid-June I achieved more days being on this earth than my husband. Rick had reached just 64 years and 73 days when he ‘moved to paradise’ following a 4-month battle with pancreatic cancer. As sad as that seems from solely a numbers perspective, the fact that Rick had such a zest for life &Continue reading “2023-06-21 And Now I’m the Older One”
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2023-09-29 The Tilt of the Sun
I am usually at our community pool around 7am as I prefer to swim & tread in my own little wet world. I have great water-resistant Bluetooth earbuds and I enjoy ‘flipping my fins’ to a variety of playlists. A few weeks back an early work meeting caused me to take a 9:30 am breakContinue reading “2023-09-29 The Tilt of the Sun”
2023-05-08 A Phone Call & More Messages
The home ‘landline’ phone rang and I glanced at the Caller ID thinking it was another scam call. It was a South Bay hospital, one that Rick had been to twice for surgical procedures during his battle with cancer. They asked for Rick as they had billing questions regarding Medicare enrollment. I told them thatContinue reading “2023-05-08 A Phone Call & More Messages”
2023-04-24 Party of 1, Living for 2
I took a weekday solo getaway, it was wonderful, a coastal area Rick & I always meant to explore. As I ‘celebrated Rick like confetti’ a wave came up so fast I didn’t get a chance to snap my usual photo of the heart drawing in the sand with a bit of ashes. So IContinue reading “2023-04-24 Party of 1, Living for 2”
2022-03-20 Seeing Blooms & Blessings
As I walk into my third year with Rick not on this earthy plain I am getting better at being more deliberate in practicing mindfulness. I take time to notice not just flowers but their hues and details. I notice not just the change of temperature walking out my front door, but the scent inContinue reading “2022-03-20 Seeing Blooms & Blessings”
2021-10-22 The Writing Prompt
A Widow/Widowers group I am in has daily prompts to share our experience. This week one of the prompts was to describe what our loved one looked like. The words just started tumbling from my head & heart and my fingers could barely keep up typing. The first paragraph below was my post, the secondContinue reading “2021-10-22 The Writing Prompt”
2021-07-09 Birdsongs, Feathers & A Memory
Sudden recall of romantic early memories has been such a gift for me almost 16 months after Rick moved to paradise. Perhaps the density of widow fog is lessening because the past few days I have been more aware of birdsongs around my home. And today a memory came flooding back. When Rick first movedContinue reading “2021-07-09 Birdsongs, Feathers & A Memory”
2021-03-29 An Affirmation & Much More
A few weeks back I wrestled with a decision that I really wished I could have Rick’s input. After pondering for a few days, I felt I knew which direction to go but decided to wait until the end of the day to act. I remember thinking aloud “Rick, this feels like the right thingContinue reading “2021-03-29 An Affirmation & Much More”
2020-12-25 The Golden Touch of Daybreak
There was a beautiful sunrise this morning. I have not been awake for many sunrises this year, which is a deviation for me. (Continuous sleep eludes me, widowhood can do that.) I had always been a ‘lark’ rather than a ‘night owl’. Rick was the ultimate night owl but @ 5 years ago he tookContinue reading “2020-12-25 The Golden Touch of Daybreak”
2019-12-10 Capturing the Precious Gold
I grew up in Northern California where school children learn how the original 49ers filtered for gold in sluice boxes. If I intently choose to use the filter of ‘refinement’ (much like a sluice box) to look at late November & December of 2019 I see I was trying catch the thin wafers of goldContinue reading “2019-12-10 Capturing the Precious Gold”
Treasure Every Day 