A cool autumn breeze coming through the open bedroom window gently roused me at 3am. There seemed to be a sweet quality to the air. I grabbed the butter fleece blanket at the end of the bed and pulled it over me. The comforting extra bulk enticed me to burrow down, and the sheets alreadyContinue reading “2023-10-11 A Cool Autumn Breeze”
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2023-05-08 A Phone Call & More Messages
The home ‘landline’ phone rang and I glanced at the Caller ID thinking it was another scam call. It was a South Bay hospital, one that Rick had been to twice for surgical procedures during his battle with cancer. They asked for Rick as they had billing questions regarding Medicare enrollment. I told them thatContinue reading “2023-05-08 A Phone Call & More Messages”
2022-12-30 A Birthday Tribute
Sharing a story of when I went to a beach Rick & I had meant to explore, but we never got the chance to go back after his cancer diagnosis. Since Rick ‘moved to paradise’ I am very aware of heart shapes: in clouds, leaves, rocks, etc. But there are some family and friends onContinue reading “2022-12-30 A Birthday Tribute”
2023-05-03 A Note to Sister & Brother Widows
I learned something on last week’s solo getaway. I roamed down a semi-private road of another Inn looking for somewhere to view the sun setting over the mighty Pacific. I was rewarded with a truly awesome sunset view! Rick & I loved exploring beaches/forests together, we both took photos & posed together. When I startedContinue reading “2023-05-03 A Note to Sister & Brother Widows”
2023-04-24 Party of 1, Living for 2
I took a weekday solo getaway, it was wonderful, a coastal area Rick & I always meant to explore. As I ‘celebrated Rick like confetti’ a wave came up so fast I didn’t get a chance to snap my usual photo of the heart drawing in the sand with a bit of ashes. So IContinue reading “2023-04-24 Party of 1, Living for 2”
2022-12-21 Hard Holidays
People seem stymied that I still straight-arm attempts to send me ‘holiday cheer’. With each well-meaning effort I am gutted that some family and friends can’t seem to recognize the draining loss that he is not here now. Although milestone dates like our wedding anniversary and Valentine’s Day are tough, they do not have theContinue reading “2022-12-21 Hard Holidays”
2021-10-22 The Writing Prompt
A Widow/Widowers group I am in has daily prompts to share our experience. This week one of the prompts was to describe what our loved one looked like. The words just started tumbling from my head & heart and my fingers could barely keep up typing. The first paragraph below was my post, the secondContinue reading “2021-10-22 The Writing Prompt”
2021-07-09 Birdsongs, Feathers & A Memory
Sudden recall of romantic early memories has been such a gift for me almost 16 months after Rick moved to paradise. Perhaps the density of widow fog is lessening because the past few days I have been more aware of birdsongs around my home. And today a memory came flooding back. When Rick first movedContinue reading “2021-07-09 Birdsongs, Feathers & A Memory”
2021-06-01 Light Shines Brightest in the Dark
Lately it is hard for me to keep it together. It has been 1 year, 2 months and 20 days since Rick ‘moved to paradise’ and in the past 5 days I have been in tears twice at our Department of Motor Vehicles while trying to change the title on Rick’s car. And mind you,Continue reading “2021-06-01 Light Shines Brightest in the Dark”
2021-03-29 An Affirmation & Much More
A few weeks back I wrestled with a decision that I really wished I could have Rick’s input. After pondering for a few days, I felt I knew which direction to go but decided to wait until the end of the day to act. I remember thinking aloud “Rick, this feels like the right thingContinue reading “2021-03-29 An Affirmation & Much More”
Treasure Every Day 